Repost: Yeah, I’ve Been Curious All Day

August 4, 2008 at 4:17 pm

Whatever happened to Amelia Earhart? I wonder, if she survived the crash and lived? Or she died doing something that she’s proud of, flying? Either way, it’s all a good ending I think. But still, what happened to her?

Whatever happened to Atlantis? I wonder, if it survived and lived, somewhere in another side of the world? Or has it washed away by something unimaginable and became a history no one will ever forget? Either way, it’s all an epic ending I think. But still, what happened to it?

Whatever happened to Dinosaurs? I wonder, if they survived and lived, and died naturally? Or are they really died because of the huge meteorites rain? Either way, it’s all an adventurous ending I think. But still, what happened to them?

Whatever will happened to me? I wonder, if I’m going to survived and lived? Or am I gonna ended up regretting, and still don’t want to let things go? Either way, it’s all a flat ending I think. But still, what will happened to me?

Whatever will happened to us? I wonder, if we’re going to survived and lived? Or are we going through our separate ways, and ended up still indescribable? Either way, it’s all a mixed ending I think. But still, what will happened to us?

Menulis dan Saya

(Post ini terinspirasi dari teman saya, Rekha, yang sangat brilian dalam menulis Aku Cerminan Jakarta. Please kindly visit her blog.)

Menulis.

Menulis sudah merupakan kegiatan yang selalu saya lakukan dari kecil. Entah itu saat saya sedang bermain menjadi guru lalu membuat semacam pelajaran khayalan dan menulis buku pelajarannya, atau saat saya sedang dalam fase "boyband" di kelas 5 SD, dimana saya membuat majalah "Westlife" dan "Pop n Top" yang berisikan foto-foto, gosip dan berita Westlife, Britney Spears dan N'sync. SMP, saya iseng membuat dan mengirimkan tulisan dan surat pembaca kepada majalah Gadis, dan alhamdulillah pada waktu itu dimuat dan saya diberi honor Rp. 300.000, senang bukan main saya waktu itu. Waktu SMA, lain lagi tulisan saya. Saya ingat betul saat itu setiap hari selalu mengupdate diary saya yang dibuat di Microsoft Word dan saya beri password agar tidak ada yang bisa membacanya selain saya. Lucunya, sekarang saya lupa dengan password itu, jadi saya tidak bisa lagi membaca puluhan lembar diary saya itu. Lalu pernah ada satu fase dimana saya terobsesi kembali dengan novel-novel Enid Blyton dan sedang dalam euforia Harry Potter sehingga saya membuat sebuah novel tentang kehidupan seorang cewek badung dengan keluarganya namun terinspirasi dengan gaya penulisan JK Rowling yang ringan namun penuh dengan imajinasi. Novel tersebut umurnya hanya mencapai 2 chapter saja.

Menulis.

Lalu saya tiba pada fase blogging. Dimana saya menuangkan apapun yang sedang saya rasakan pada waktu itu, baik lirik lagu, kutipan-kutipan dari film dan buku, atau hanya sekedar saya berupaya membuat sebuah karangan yang baik. Saya senang dengan blog saya waktu itu, setiap ketikan dan postingan yang saya buat rasanya saya sangat bersemangat dan yah, berbobot. Namun karena satu dan lain hal, blog tersebut saya hentikan. Sekarang, saya punya blog yang ini. Tapi saya merasa ada sesuatu yang hilang, ada yang tidak bernyawa pada blog ini, entah apa itu. Saya merasa kehilangan semangat dan passion dalam menulis, sesuatu yang dulunya begitu antusias saya kerjakan.

Menulis.

Membuat sebuah buku merupakan sesuatu yang dulunya saya impikan, namun sekarang rasanya semakin jauh saya dapatkan. Saya kangen dengan masa-masa dimana menulis merupakan hal yang mudah bagi saya, sekarang rasanya semakin jauh dari hadapan saya. Saya ingin semangat saya kembali, saya ingin menulis seperti dulu lagi.

Overrated

I miss you.
You. Yes, you.
If you think it's you that I'm missing, you're right.
Definitely, it's you.
Why?
Do I have to tell you why?
Do you need to know?
Is it not good enough to know that I miss you?
The fact that I am missing y-o-u.
If it's not good enough, then I think I was wrong,
for missing you.

:)

Smile though your heart is aching

Smile even though it's breaking

When there are clouds in the sky you'll get by

If you smile through your pain and sorrow

Smile and maybe tomorrow

You'll see the sun come shining through for you.

Light up your face with gladness

Hide every trace of sadness

Although a tear maybe ever so near

That's the time you must keep on trying

Smile, what's the use of crying?

You'll find that life is still worthwhile
If you'll just smile.

That's the time you must keep on trying

Smile, what's the use of crying?

You'll find that life is still worthwhile

If you'll just smile.

Smile though your heart is aching
Smile even though it's breaking

When there are clouds in the sky you'll get by

That's the time you must keep on trying

Smile, what's the use of crying?

You'll find that life is still worthwhile

If you'll just smile.

You'll find that life is still worthwhile

If you'll just smile.

Smile

Smile - Charlie Chaplin

Aal Iiz Well.

Remember that, Sara.

(via sergeantkero @ tumblr)

This reminds me of my

"You're the apple to my pie, the ice to my tea, the coca to my cola."

And for this, I'm smiling.

(via apriliciate @ tumblr)

Yes, we need to know that.

True

via Ruby Gatta.

A Little Bit Too Late

Di umur gw yang tepat 21 tahun bulan lalu ini, gw merasa gagal. Gagal untuk memaksimalkan masa remaja gw sebaik mungkin. Dan ini baru gw sadari sekarang. Ya, si kata terlambat ini memang datangnya selalu belakangan, sesuai dengan kultur orang Indonesia mungkin ya, sukanya telat.

Gw melewatkan masa SMA gw hanya dengan sekolah, pacaran dan hang out sama temen-temen gw. Gw tidak tergabung sama OSIS SMA, atau pun ikut kegiatan-kegiatan di luar sekolah. Ekstra kurikuler gw ada 2, softball dan saman. Softball, cuma ikut latihan 2 kali, dan saman, walaupun sempet ikut manggung di 2 event, but that's it. Bener-bener plain.

Kuliah, cuma 2 kata, salah jurusan. Ya, setelah di semester 6 ini pula, gw semakin ngerasa kalo Bisnis, sama sekali bukan dunia gw. Gw merasa jauh dibawah temen-temen gw yang lain, yang keliatannya sangat enjoy dengan dunia perekonomian dan bisnis. Gw merasa, this is not my world. Dan mungkin udah terlambat bgt ya buat gw untuk pindah jurusan dan kuliah, jadi sekarang gw cuma harus bertahan 2 semester lagi, dan berusaha sebaik mungkin ngejalanin kuliah gw ini.

To be honest, gw gak merasa punya suatu kelebihan yang bisa gw banggakan. Akademis, gw gak pinter-pinter amat. Istilahnya, lulus mata kuliah aja alhamdulillah. Gw gak bisa main musik, walaupun gitar bisa sedikit kunci A, B, dan teman-temannya. Cabang olahraga khusus? Gak ada. Ikut organisasi apapun juga nggak. Bahasa, gw cuma bisa Bahasa Inggris, walaupun sempet diajarin Bahasa Arab di sekolah dulu, tp sekarang udah gak berbekas sama sekali. Apalagi ya? You name it, and I will say that I don't think I can do it.

Sekarang ini, gw bener-bener salut dengan anak-anak jaman sekarang, yang punya prestasi dan suatu kelebihan yang udah mereka sadari dari sekarang. Mereka udah lebih bisa menyuarakan pendapat mereka, and they're not afraid to put their mind into an action(s). Contoh aja Alanda Kariza. She's the founder of the Indonesian Youth Conference, sebuah acara yang menghadirkan forum yang khusus dibuat dari remaja untuk remaja untuk dapat menyuarakan pendapat mereka dan didengar.

Setelah nonton 3 Idiots, which was like the greatest Indian movie I've ever watched, gw baru tersadar. Gw gak punya passion yang segitunya, gak seperti Rancho di film itu yang passionnya untuk belajar sangat besar, dan Farhan yang suka bgt sm fotografi. Mungkin adalah 1 atau 2 bidang yang gw tertarik dan suka, tapi cuma sebatas itu aja. Gw gak mendalami lebih jauh lagi, semuanya terkesan setengah-setengah.

Dan sekarang, di umur gw yang 21 tahun ini, gw merasa gagal.

Mungkin belum begitu terlambat buat gw untuk mulai mencari dan menemukan passion gw itu, which is what I'm trying to do now. Gw yakin, gw akan menemukan passion gw, dan di saat gw udah tau apa itu, gw gak akan setengah-setengah menjalaninya.

This Time...

Baby, I couldn't lie that I miss you so.
You keep saying "Goodbye" and I keep saying "Hello."

- Music For Sale, Far Away From You

Past, Present. Future?

As I was blogwalking to my usuals, I found a link to my old blog in Rekha's, so I decided to stop by and read it. And I found this... I admit that I'm not a good writer, but for this one, I have to say that I did well and I'm proud. My inspiration for this post was mainly, well, you.



Well, what do you think?

Anyway, I'm in the middle of my exam week and after that, by January 28th until March 1st, I'll be at Kadununggal Village, Sukabumi, doing my community development project. I'm not that excited. Don't ask why. Really, there's nothing to look forward to this month and February. Can I just fast-forward it to March? It's my month anyway...

Ok, I have to go, those slides and papers are calling me back. Wish me luck on everything guys!

Toodle-o!


Pssstt... Check this out!





I'm in love with these songs. A lil' bit about Music For Sale can be found here.

The List

Things that I miss:

1. I miss saying 'I love you' and really mean it
2. I miss calling you 'yang'
3. I miss holding hands in the public
4. I miss having a person who can only see me
5. I miss having someone who's devoted to me
   
6. I miss having a commitment
7. I miss us.

But I don't have time for that. I have to be more mature, have to start thinking about my future. That list is just not worth it. And this guy, the one that I still very much in love for the past four years, have to go. It's for my own good. I'm pretty sure he wants the best for me, too.

Moving On

Kodok ijo harus pergi.
Tidak, bukan berarti ada boneka baru yang lebih baik.
Sampai kapanpun, yang bisa buat dia tidur dengan nyenyak dan nyaman hanya si kodok.
Tapi, dia sudah mulai tumbuh besar, sudah harus lebih dewasa.
Teman-temannya mulai mengolok-olok dirinya karena si kodok.
Rasanya tidak pantas bila dia masih memiliki si kodok ijo yang usang itu di tempat tidurnya.
Dan untuk itu, si kodok harus pergi.
Rasanya memang hampa, tidak ada lagi yang menemaninya tidur.
Satu, dua atau tiga hari, ia gelisah, tidak bisa tidur dengan nyenyak.
Namun, pada hari berikutnya, perlahan-lahan, tanpa si kodok, dia dapat tidur.
Sampai pada akhirnya, dia sama sekali lupa dengan keberadaan si kodok.
Dan baginya, kodok ijo tidak lebih dari sebuah boneka dengan kenangan masa kecilnya.

Picking Up The Pieces

A: "What am I gonna do when the best part of me was always you? What am I supposed to say when I'm all choked up and you're ok? I'm falling to pieces. One still in love while the other one's leaving. Because when a heart breaks no it don't break even."

B: "I want you to know that it doesn't matter where we take this road someone's gotta go. And I want you to know you couldn't have loved me better, but I want you to move on so I'm already gone."

A: "You're everything I thought you never were and nothing like thought you could have been. But still you lived inside of me, so tell me how is that you're the only one I wish I could forget. The only one I loved and not forgive. And though you've break my heart, you're the only one.

And though there are times when I hate you because I can't erase the times that you hurt me and put tears on my face. And even now I hate you its pains me to say 'I know I'll be there at the end of the day'."

B: "Well it’s hard to belong to a girl or a song, in the case of a selfish believer. And it’s strange to be lost, stranger still to belong on the strings of a twisting line.

When the path I have made from the grass to the grave, I will love you still.
And when the sand turns to glass, and all that’s left is the past,
I will love you still."

Good bye, you.

Feeling Blue

When everything that I do is wrong, I really could use a hug.


Image courtesy of woolloomooloo

Love Hurts

How could love connects a two different people with absolutely nothing in common? Is it true that all you need is love? Because now I just feel effortless.

I love him, a lot. But maybe he thinks that I'm not meant for him.

Never Say Never

We're pulling apart and coming together again and again.
We're growing apart but we pull it together, pull it together, together again.

Don't let me go...

Note at Night

I'm a dork and my Boyfriend is a jock.
But we obviously in love with each other.
We have a lot in common, and a even more of differences.
Some say that we don't even match.
Hell, we said that too.
Guess what? We still together until now.
And 4 years? It's just the beginning.
Me and him, that's the way it's should be.

B for Busy, and another B

Busy me. Tomorrow I've got an important presentation to do, talking about House of Hoodie website and blog, am kinda nervous and also don't wanna be late again, hehe, sooo, wish me luck people! Aaand on Tuesday, it's jaga stand-time! Haha. Just a little bit of reminding you that House of Hoodie will be there at Ladies Fashion Tuesday at Citos, bring cash will you? My shift starts at 11.15 am, and lets hope it's not hot at that time, or else I can't take it, may need to bring a fan or a tank top, just in case.

Isn't this Alexander Wang dress a good thing to wear to a presentation? If only...
Ooh, I dyed my hair dark brown, it's not much of a difference, but I love it! And yay, my clickers reach 24! It's definitely something for me :)

I'm starting to feel like you're not treating me fair enough.
I'm tired and just want some happiness, I want the old you back.
you're being a B, you know that.

Hey You

I give up. Do whatever you want. If you really care about me, you'd do the right thing. But you don't even want to stop. I'm already this broken, what's next?

This is our month, for God's sake, could you be less like that, and respect me as your, I don't know... Your someone.

Blue is Everywhere Today

Yup, it's everywhere. In my school's jacket, and all over the factory. Just got back from a fun company visit/field trip to Pocari Sweat factory at Sukabumi. It was quite far from Jakarta, about 100 km, and the bus was ok, not to shabby and got an air conditioner. But when I want to take pictures with my camera, it run out of battery, bummer. So I'll just have to wait from Aceh's camera if I want to upload it here. Which I will, I promise.

When I'm at the bus, while listening to my iPod and looking through the window, I think of something. I want to post it here, so I decided to keep a note on my cell phone, in case I forget. So, here it is...

"I let you play your game, but I don't know how long I will last."

It's just something I had in mind, for a certain someone.

Ookay then, on to some good news! Next Tuesday, 16th of June, beside my mom's birthday, House of Hoodie (my business project) will be participating at Citos Fashion Tuesday! God, I'm so excited! Ooh, and also at the same date, Cita, my Boyfriend's lil sister, will be arriving from the US! What a good Tuesday it will be :)

Moving on, it seems like this week is hectic week #2! I've got a Marketing presentation and an effing Finance quiz tomorrow, and the Operation paper assignment due this Friday. And I must go to PIM sometime around this week to buy something. Busy busy me!

I need to start redecorating my room, it's been a while I kinda miss my comfort zone! Things there are cluttering and I need to get my butt up and start cleaning up!