P.S: Today's my 65 months anniversary. Yay.
Tuesday, November 23, 2010
Sunday, September 5, 2010
A Note to You
I'm feeling a bit strange after I watched "He's Just Not That Into You" for the gazillion times at HBO. And it makes me think. I thought about love most of the time. There's something magical about it, how two stranger meet up, they match, and become instantly inseparable just for the reason of... love. Love can connects two different people with different interests, almost with nothing in common. Love makes you think of all the things you never imagined before. Love makes you do something that you hate before, just for the sake of someone else's happiness. It is simply put, magical.
Love is supposed to be easy. It takes two people to fall into one, and then life happily ever after. Well, at least that's what Disney's movies have been telling us all this time. When in real life, it's far more complex than that.
To love is to be able to accept. It's like when you can tolerate me being super oversensitive and not making such a fuss about it. It's when you actually understand that I'm on my PMS and well, when I'm on it, you knew that I've turned into a major drama queen everyone love to hate but yet, you still try to make me smile all day. It's when you still want to hug me, even though I'm being a very bad girlfriend and wasn't supportive at what you did.
You know, I love our little conversation at dinner tonight, what's with the future and etcetera. But then again, it makes me think. I still remember all the years we've spent together, all the fights and dramas, the problems and the ugliness. I don't want to ever through that again, ever. Sure I have had doubts in you, but it was years ago, I was being what I am at that time, a foolish teenager. And you just being what you are, a boy. It's funny how we cannot seem to forget each other or to move on to another person. Trust me, if I had the guts to leave you back then, I so would boy, but I just couldn't. I didn't want to.
To love is to be able to accept. I love you from the moment we texted every day to the days we've spent at our favorite mall, for who you are, your badness and your goodness. I love the way you are, and I wouldn't want to change a thing about you, it just wont be the same again.
I don't know what the future will give us, we all don't have the slightest idea. I just hope that whatever that is, it is something to look forward to.
Love you yang, always.
Love is supposed to be easy. It takes two people to fall into one, and then life happily ever after. Well, at least that's what Disney's movies have been telling us all this time. When in real life, it's far more complex than that.
To love is to be able to accept. It's like when you can tolerate me being super oversensitive and not making such a fuss about it. It's when you actually understand that I'm on my PMS and well, when I'm on it, you knew that I've turned into a major drama queen everyone love to hate but yet, you still try to make me smile all day. It's when you still want to hug me, even though I'm being a very bad girlfriend and wasn't supportive at what you did.
You know, I love our little conversation at dinner tonight, what's with the future and etcetera. But then again, it makes me think. I still remember all the years we've spent together, all the fights and dramas, the problems and the ugliness. I don't want to ever through that again, ever. Sure I have had doubts in you, but it was years ago, I was being what I am at that time, a foolish teenager. And you just being what you are, a boy. It's funny how we cannot seem to forget each other or to move on to another person. Trust me, if I had the guts to leave you back then, I so would boy, but I just couldn't. I didn't want to.
To love is to be able to accept. I love you from the moment we texted every day to the days we've spent at our favorite mall, for who you are, your badness and your goodness. I love the way you are, and I wouldn't want to change a thing about you, it just wont be the same again.
I don't know what the future will give us, we all don't have the slightest idea. I just hope that whatever that is, it is something to look forward to.
Love you yang, always.
Thursday, July 1, 2010
Repost: Yeah, I’ve Been Curious All Day
August 4, 2008 at 4:17 pm
Whatever happened to Amelia Earhart? I wonder, if she survived the crash and lived? Or she died doing something that she’s proud of, flying? Either way, it’s all a good ending I think. But still, what happened to her?
Whatever happened to Atlantis? I wonder, if it survived and lived, somewhere in another side of the world? Or has it washed away by something unimaginable and became a history no one will ever forget? Either way, it’s all an epic ending I think. But still, what happened to it?
Whatever happened to Dinosaurs? I wonder, if they survived and lived, and died naturally? Or are they really died because of the huge meteorites rain? Either way, it’s all an adventurous ending I think. But still, what happened to them?
Whatever will happened to me? I wonder, if I’m going to survived and lived? Or am I gonna ended up regretting, and still don’t want to let things go? Either way, it’s all a flat ending I think. But still, what will happened to me?
Whatever will happened to us? I wonder, if we’re going to survived and lived? Or are we going through our separate ways, and ended up still indescribable? Either way, it’s all a mixed ending I think. But still, what will happened to us?
Whatever happened to Atlantis? I wonder, if it survived and lived, somewhere in another side of the world? Or has it washed away by something unimaginable and became a history no one will ever forget? Either way, it’s all an epic ending I think. But still, what happened to it?
Whatever happened to Dinosaurs? I wonder, if they survived and lived, and died naturally? Or are they really died because of the huge meteorites rain? Either way, it’s all an adventurous ending I think. But still, what happened to them?
Whatever will happened to me? I wonder, if I’m going to survived and lived? Or am I gonna ended up regretting, and still don’t want to let things go? Either way, it’s all a flat ending I think. But still, what will happened to me?
Whatever will happened to us? I wonder, if we’re going to survived and lived? Or are we going through our separate ways, and ended up still indescribable? Either way, it’s all a mixed ending I think. But still, what will happened to us?
Tuesday, June 29, 2010
Menulis dan Saya
(Post ini terinspirasi dari teman saya, Rekha, yang sangat brilian dalam menulis Aku Cerminan Jakarta. Please kindly visit her blog.)
Menulis.
Menulis sudah merupakan kegiatan yang selalu saya lakukan dari kecil. Entah itu saat saya sedang bermain menjadi guru lalu membuat semacam pelajaran khayalan dan menulis buku pelajarannya, atau saat saya sedang dalam fase "boyband" di kelas 5 SD, dimana saya membuat majalah "Westlife" dan "Pop n Top" yang berisikan foto-foto, gosip dan berita Westlife, Britney Spears dan N'sync. SMP, saya iseng membuat dan mengirimkan tulisan dan surat pembaca kepada majalah Gadis, dan alhamdulillah pada waktu itu dimuat dan saya diberi honor Rp. 300.000, senang bukan main saya waktu itu. Waktu SMA, lain lagi tulisan saya. Saya ingat betul saat itu setiap hari selalu mengupdate diary saya yang dibuat di Microsoft Word dan saya beri password agar tidak ada yang bisa membacanya selain saya. Lucunya, sekarang saya lupa dengan password itu, jadi saya tidak bisa lagi membaca puluhan lembar diary saya itu. Lalu pernah ada satu fase dimana saya terobsesi kembali dengan novel-novel Enid Blyton dan sedang dalam euforia Harry Potter sehingga saya membuat sebuah novel tentang kehidupan seorang cewek badung dengan keluarganya namun terinspirasi dengan gaya penulisan JK Rowling yang ringan namun penuh dengan imajinasi. Novel tersebut umurnya hanya mencapai 2 chapter saja.
Menulis.
Lalu saya tiba pada fase blogging. Dimana saya menuangkan apapun yang sedang saya rasakan pada waktu itu, baik lirik lagu, kutipan-kutipan dari film dan buku, atau hanya sekedar saya berupaya membuat sebuah karangan yang baik. Saya senang dengan blog saya waktu itu, setiap ketikan dan postingan yang saya buat rasanya saya sangat bersemangat dan yah, berbobot. Namun karena satu dan lain hal, blog tersebut saya hentikan. Sekarang, saya punya blog yang ini. Tapi saya merasa ada sesuatu yang hilang, ada yang tidak bernyawa pada blog ini, entah apa itu. Saya merasa kehilangan semangat dan passion dalam menulis, sesuatu yang dulunya begitu antusias saya kerjakan.
Menulis.
Membuat sebuah buku merupakan sesuatu yang dulunya saya impikan, namun sekarang rasanya semakin jauh saya dapatkan. Saya kangen dengan masa-masa dimana menulis merupakan hal yang mudah bagi saya, sekarang rasanya semakin jauh dari hadapan saya. Saya ingin semangat saya kembali, saya ingin menulis seperti dulu lagi.
Menulis.
Menulis sudah merupakan kegiatan yang selalu saya lakukan dari kecil. Entah itu saat saya sedang bermain menjadi guru lalu membuat semacam pelajaran khayalan dan menulis buku pelajarannya, atau saat saya sedang dalam fase "boyband" di kelas 5 SD, dimana saya membuat majalah "Westlife" dan "Pop n Top" yang berisikan foto-foto, gosip dan berita Westlife, Britney Spears dan N'sync. SMP, saya iseng membuat dan mengirimkan tulisan dan surat pembaca kepada majalah Gadis, dan alhamdulillah pada waktu itu dimuat dan saya diberi honor Rp. 300.000, senang bukan main saya waktu itu. Waktu SMA, lain lagi tulisan saya. Saya ingat betul saat itu setiap hari selalu mengupdate diary saya yang dibuat di Microsoft Word dan saya beri password agar tidak ada yang bisa membacanya selain saya. Lucunya, sekarang saya lupa dengan password itu, jadi saya tidak bisa lagi membaca puluhan lembar diary saya itu. Lalu pernah ada satu fase dimana saya terobsesi kembali dengan novel-novel Enid Blyton dan sedang dalam euforia Harry Potter sehingga saya membuat sebuah novel tentang kehidupan seorang cewek badung dengan keluarganya namun terinspirasi dengan gaya penulisan JK Rowling yang ringan namun penuh dengan imajinasi. Novel tersebut umurnya hanya mencapai 2 chapter saja.
Menulis.
Lalu saya tiba pada fase blogging. Dimana saya menuangkan apapun yang sedang saya rasakan pada waktu itu, baik lirik lagu, kutipan-kutipan dari film dan buku, atau hanya sekedar saya berupaya membuat sebuah karangan yang baik. Saya senang dengan blog saya waktu itu, setiap ketikan dan postingan yang saya buat rasanya saya sangat bersemangat dan yah, berbobot. Namun karena satu dan lain hal, blog tersebut saya hentikan. Sekarang, saya punya blog yang ini. Tapi saya merasa ada sesuatu yang hilang, ada yang tidak bernyawa pada blog ini, entah apa itu. Saya merasa kehilangan semangat dan passion dalam menulis, sesuatu yang dulunya begitu antusias saya kerjakan.
Menulis.
Membuat sebuah buku merupakan sesuatu yang dulunya saya impikan, namun sekarang rasanya semakin jauh saya dapatkan. Saya kangen dengan masa-masa dimana menulis merupakan hal yang mudah bagi saya, sekarang rasanya semakin jauh dari hadapan saya. Saya ingin semangat saya kembali, saya ingin menulis seperti dulu lagi.
Thursday, April 29, 2010
Giggles
I have to pick the red one. But only because of a personal reason. Nah, never mind that.
How 'bout you? How are you and how do you feel today?
Long time no blog, tweet, or any (online) social networking interactions lately. I don't do Facebook anymore, boring as hell.
Soooo, what to do now?
How about some fashion update? Sounds good?
Ok then! :D
I'm quite into jackets and outerwear right now, even though it's practically 40 degree Celsius out here in Jakarta. Here's some of them that catch my attention:
Adoring this Shape Shiftr velvet jacket so much, and I love this whole look, not too girly and overdo. Nice.
1 word, gorgeous. Love it love it love it and I wanna have it! Ohh, give me this Tutu Blu cardigan, pleaseee.
I think that's it for this hour. Let me see if I can update it on the next hour. Time for blogwalking!
Until then fellas!
Monday, April 12, 2010
Overrated
I miss you.
You. Yes, you.
If you think it's you that I'm missing, you're right.
Definitely, it's you.
Why?
Do I have to tell you why?
Do you need to know?
Is it not good enough to know that I miss you?
The fact that I am missing y-o-u.
If it's not good enough, then I think I was wrong,
for missing you.
You. Yes, you.
If you think it's you that I'm missing, you're right.
Definitely, it's you.
Why?
Do I have to tell you why?
Do you need to know?
Is it not good enough to know that I miss you?
The fact that I am missing y-o-u.
If it's not good enough, then I think I was wrong,
for missing you.
Sunday, April 11, 2010
:)
Smile though your heart is aching
Smile even though it's breaking
When there are clouds in the sky you'll get by
If you smile through your pain and sorrow
Smile and maybe tomorrow
You'll see the sun come shining through for you.
Light up your face with gladness
Hide every trace of sadness
Although a tear maybe ever so near
That's the time you must keep on trying
Smile, what's the use of crying?
You'll find that life is still worthwhile
If you'll just smile.
If you'll just smile.
That's the time you must keep on trying
Smile, what's the use of crying?
You'll find that life is still worthwhile
If you'll just smile.
Smile though your heart is aching
Smile even though it's breaking
Smile even though it's breaking
When there are clouds in the sky you'll get by
That's the time you must keep on trying
Smile, what's the use of crying?
You'll find that life is still worthwhile
If you'll just smile.
You'll find that life is still worthwhile
If you'll just smile.
Smile
Smile - Charlie Chaplin
Monday, April 5, 2010
W.
The woman who follows the crowd will usually go no further than the crowd. The woman who walks alone is likely to find herself in places no one has ever been before.
Panic Attack
Ok, so I'm posting in the middle of the night, my group paper is not done yet, let alone to be printed, and the deadline is tomorrow. My stress level is up to its highest rate, and I just don't know what and how am I supposed to do now. Stressed out. Oh, and did you know that stressed spelled backward is desserts? Now I want one. Yeap, in the middle of the night. I couldn't care less.
Sunday, April 4, 2010
No Wonder
Ok, so this is quite funny. I was just googling to search on how to add pages in my blog, but I stopped typing because I saw this. Apparently, this is what Indonesian people need to know right now.. LOL
6 of them are actually about food. And that makes me hungry now. Better check what's left on my refrigerator. Later!
(via sergeantkero @ tumblr)This reminds me of my
"You're the apple to my pie, the ice to my tea, the coca to my cola."
And for this, I'm smiling.
(via apriliciate @ tumblr)
Yes, we need to know that.
Friday, April 2, 2010
A Little Bit Too Late
Di umur gw yang tepat 21 tahun bulan lalu ini, gw merasa gagal. Gagal untuk memaksimalkan masa remaja gw sebaik mungkin. Dan ini baru gw sadari sekarang. Ya, si kata terlambat ini memang datangnya selalu belakangan, sesuai dengan kultur orang Indonesia mungkin ya, sukanya telat.
Gw melewatkan masa SMA gw hanya dengan sekolah, pacaran dan hang out sama temen-temen gw. Gw tidak tergabung sama OSIS SMA, atau pun ikut kegiatan-kegiatan di luar sekolah. Ekstra kurikuler gw ada 2, softball dan saman. Softball, cuma ikut latihan 2 kali, dan saman, walaupun sempet ikut manggung di 2 event, but that's it. Bener-bener plain.
Kuliah, cuma 2 kata, salah jurusan. Ya, setelah di semester 6 ini pula, gw semakin ngerasa kalo Bisnis, sama sekali bukan dunia gw. Gw merasa jauh dibawah temen-temen gw yang lain, yang keliatannya sangat enjoy dengan dunia perekonomian dan bisnis. Gw merasa, this is not my world. Dan mungkin udah terlambat bgt ya buat gw untuk pindah jurusan dan kuliah, jadi sekarang gw cuma harus bertahan 2 semester lagi, dan berusaha sebaik mungkin ngejalanin kuliah gw ini.
To be honest, gw gak merasa punya suatu kelebihan yang bisa gw banggakan. Akademis, gw gak pinter-pinter amat. Istilahnya, lulus mata kuliah aja alhamdulillah. Gw gak bisa main musik, walaupun gitar bisa sedikit kunci A, B, dan teman-temannya. Cabang olahraga khusus? Gak ada. Ikut organisasi apapun juga nggak. Bahasa, gw cuma bisa Bahasa Inggris, walaupun sempet diajarin Bahasa Arab di sekolah dulu, tp sekarang udah gak berbekas sama sekali. Apalagi ya? You name it, and I will say that I don't think I can do it.
Sekarang ini, gw bener-bener salut dengan anak-anak jaman sekarang, yang punya prestasi dan suatu kelebihan yang udah mereka sadari dari sekarang. Mereka udah lebih bisa menyuarakan pendapat mereka, and they're not afraid to put their mind into an action(s). Contoh aja Alanda Kariza. She's the founder of the Indonesian Youth Conference, sebuah acara yang menghadirkan forum yang khusus dibuat dari remaja untuk remaja untuk dapat menyuarakan pendapat mereka dan didengar.
Setelah nonton 3 Idiots, which was like the greatest Indian movie I've ever watched, gw baru tersadar. Gw gak punya passion yang segitunya, gak seperti Rancho di film itu yang passionnya untuk belajar sangat besar, dan Farhan yang suka bgt sm fotografi. Mungkin adalah 1 atau 2 bidang yang gw tertarik dan suka, tapi cuma sebatas itu aja. Gw gak mendalami lebih jauh lagi, semuanya terkesan setengah-setengah.
Dan sekarang, di umur gw yang 21 tahun ini, gw merasa gagal.
Mungkin belum begitu terlambat buat gw untuk mulai mencari dan menemukan passion gw itu, which is what I'm trying to do now. Gw yakin, gw akan menemukan passion gw, dan di saat gw udah tau apa itu, gw gak akan setengah-setengah menjalaninya.
Gw melewatkan masa SMA gw hanya dengan sekolah, pacaran dan hang out sama temen-temen gw. Gw tidak tergabung sama OSIS SMA, atau pun ikut kegiatan-kegiatan di luar sekolah. Ekstra kurikuler gw ada 2, softball dan saman. Softball, cuma ikut latihan 2 kali, dan saman, walaupun sempet ikut manggung di 2 event, but that's it. Bener-bener plain.
Kuliah, cuma 2 kata, salah jurusan. Ya, setelah di semester 6 ini pula, gw semakin ngerasa kalo Bisnis, sama sekali bukan dunia gw. Gw merasa jauh dibawah temen-temen gw yang lain, yang keliatannya sangat enjoy dengan dunia perekonomian dan bisnis. Gw merasa, this is not my world. Dan mungkin udah terlambat bgt ya buat gw untuk pindah jurusan dan kuliah, jadi sekarang gw cuma harus bertahan 2 semester lagi, dan berusaha sebaik mungkin ngejalanin kuliah gw ini.
To be honest, gw gak merasa punya suatu kelebihan yang bisa gw banggakan. Akademis, gw gak pinter-pinter amat. Istilahnya, lulus mata kuliah aja alhamdulillah. Gw gak bisa main musik, walaupun gitar bisa sedikit kunci A, B, dan teman-temannya. Cabang olahraga khusus? Gak ada. Ikut organisasi apapun juga nggak. Bahasa, gw cuma bisa Bahasa Inggris, walaupun sempet diajarin Bahasa Arab di sekolah dulu, tp sekarang udah gak berbekas sama sekali. Apalagi ya? You name it, and I will say that I don't think I can do it.
Sekarang ini, gw bener-bener salut dengan anak-anak jaman sekarang, yang punya prestasi dan suatu kelebihan yang udah mereka sadari dari sekarang. Mereka udah lebih bisa menyuarakan pendapat mereka, and they're not afraid to put their mind into an action(s). Contoh aja Alanda Kariza. She's the founder of the Indonesian Youth Conference, sebuah acara yang menghadirkan forum yang khusus dibuat dari remaja untuk remaja untuk dapat menyuarakan pendapat mereka dan didengar.
Setelah nonton 3 Idiots, which was like the greatest Indian movie I've ever watched, gw baru tersadar. Gw gak punya passion yang segitunya, gak seperti Rancho di film itu yang passionnya untuk belajar sangat besar, dan Farhan yang suka bgt sm fotografi. Mungkin adalah 1 atau 2 bidang yang gw tertarik dan suka, tapi cuma sebatas itu aja. Gw gak mendalami lebih jauh lagi, semuanya terkesan setengah-setengah.
Dan sekarang, di umur gw yang 21 tahun ini, gw merasa gagal.
Mungkin belum begitu terlambat buat gw untuk mulai mencari dan menemukan passion gw itu, which is what I'm trying to do now. Gw yakin, gw akan menemukan passion gw, dan di saat gw udah tau apa itu, gw gak akan setengah-setengah menjalaninya.
Monday, March 15, 2010
This Time...
Baby, I couldn't lie that I miss you so.
You keep saying "Goodbye" and I keep saying "Hello."
You keep saying "Goodbye" and I keep saying "Hello."
- Music For Sale, Far Away From You
Friday, March 12, 2010
Changes
New style. What do you think people?
I'm just trying out new stuff, you know, just to get out of my comfort zone. It's fun, actually. But as we all know, it's not that comfortable after all.
Well, what's new from my life? Lets see... I'm back at Jakarta, and officially in my 6th semester. And I know that it will be busy as hell, but maybe that is exactly what I needed. What else, what else?
I'm blanking. Catch ya later!
I'm just trying out new stuff, you know, just to get out of my comfort zone. It's fun, actually. But as we all know, it's not that comfortable after all.
Well, what's new from my life? Lets see... I'm back at Jakarta, and officially in my 6th semester. And I know that it will be busy as hell, but maybe that is exactly what I needed. What else, what else?
I'm blanking. Catch ya later!
Monday, January 18, 2010
Past, Present. Future?
As I was blogwalking to my usuals, I found a link to my old blog in Rekha's, so I decided to stop by and read it. And I found this... I admit that I'm not a good writer, but for this one, I have to say that I did well and I'm proud. My inspiration for this post was mainly, well, you.
Well, what do you think?
Anyway, I'm in the middle of my exam week and after that, by January 28th until March 1st, I'll be at Kadununggal Village, Sukabumi, doing my community development project. I'm not that excited. Don't ask why. Really, there's nothing to look forward to this month and February. Can I just fast-forward it to March? It's my month anyway...
Ok, I have to go, those slides and papers are calling me back. Wish me luck on everything guys!
Toodle-o!
Pssstt... Check this out!
I'm in love with these songs. A lil' bit about Music For Sale can be found here.
Well, what do you think?
Anyway, I'm in the middle of my exam week and after that, by January 28th until March 1st, I'll be at Kadununggal Village, Sukabumi, doing my community development project. I'm not that excited. Don't ask why. Really, there's nothing to look forward to this month and February. Can I just fast-forward it to March? It's my month anyway...
Ok, I have to go, those slides and papers are calling me back. Wish me luck on everything guys!
Toodle-o!
Pssstt... Check this out!
I'm in love with these songs. A lil' bit about Music For Sale can be found here.
Wednesday, January 6, 2010
2010, Work It Out For Me!
Happy New Year! (Yeah, I know it's kinda late, but still. Lol)
This is my first post in 2010, so I should probably make it special, but right now, nothing seems to be special for me.
I just hope, whatever this year have ahead for me, I hope it's a good thing. Enough about all the sadness and crappiness. It's time to have fun!
This is my first post in 2010, so I should probably make it special, but right now, nothing seems to be special for me.
I just hope, whatever this year have ahead for me, I hope it's a good thing. Enough about all the sadness and crappiness. It's time to have fun!
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